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Does this white-as-paste family look like we need a subscription to Vibe magazine?
Apparently my dear-little-white-headed-mother thought so when she hijacked the mail sometime in JANUARY and took an LL Bean credit card that was in her name.
Sure mom. Why not buy $397.00 worth of magazine subscriptions and then hide the bill. After all, everybody’s doin’ it.
So after my trip to the hospital for my second endoscopy, (with tons more anesthesia) and being nearly comatose all day, I had the joy of trying to straighten out the credit card issue.
She is complacent and I am tired of being a parent to my mother, policing her every move, waiting for the next bomb to drop. Did I mention I am single and already have two children at home to take care of?
Stop-the-ride-please-I-want-to-get-off.
I know. My mother will only be around for so long, but I miss my old mom. The one she was BEFORE the brain injury. The one that wouldn’t be sneaky and hide things, the one that I could hold a two-way conversation with, the one that took care of me when I needed her. Selfish huh? Well, that is all I have today and I’m sorry if I have disappointed you with my childish behavior, but I’m fresh out of adult wisdom.
It’s just that, in my lifetime, I have never even considered having to hold a conversation with my saint like mother to tell her why it is wrong to stash a credit card and a bill. That it is wrong to buy things you can’t pay for. And then I wonder if I’m the one with the brain injury for expecting her to *get it.* Sigh.
Anyway, I am taking a Scott Kelby workshop tomorrow. Far, far, far away from screaming children, endoscopy’s and mother’s that hijack the mail. This workshop is the equivalent of the spa for me and I hope that I will enjoy it. I’m not used to being without my kids, so I’m not sure how I will handle being in a room full of adults sharing a common interest. What if I just loose it and start dancing right there in the conference center? If you don’t hear from me in a couple of days, please check all psychiatric facilities in the surrounding area.
Okay, enough silliness. I have to go catch up on….
Town & Country, Shape, Star, Parenting, Beautiful Home, National Geographic, Traditional Home, Reader’s Digest….and Vibe for a little bit-a soul. Just kidding. If I had even a moment I’d be reading all your blogs!
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Wifey's House says:
Wow. That’s got to be tough. My father-in-law died from Alzheimer’s two years ago and it was so hard on my husband to watch his father change so drastically.
You have a wonderful sense of humor - hold on to it! And, enjoy your workshop!
May 12th, 2008 at 10:51 pm
We are THAT family says:
I don’t know how you do it! Don’t feel guilty for even a second. You are amazing. Enjoy your day tomorrow. Without a second thought!
May 12th, 2008 at 10:54 pm
carrie-the gremlin wrangler says:
do not start cracking up right in the middle of the seminar because you start thinking about all the stupid stuff you could do! Have a good time, and I will expect a full report tomorrow night!
May 12th, 2008 at 11:33 pm
Amanda says:
(((HUGS)))
Enjoy your seminar and the time away from normal hectic life you live.
May 13th, 2008 at 4:35 am
Jill says:
Prayers for you and your family. Prayers to just be refreshed.
May 13th, 2008 at 1:55 pm
Dillo says:
Thanks for sharing the heartfelt hard stuff! You are an inspiration to me….and I’m sure many others. Your example keeps me going on my hard days (which aren’t ever as hard as your easier days I think). Keep the faith! We’re with ya in your corner! Enjoy your day! I have to go call my dad now to strongly persuade him to take his meds-again! (really!)
May 13th, 2008 at 6:45 pm
Bahama Mama says:
Not selfish… realistic. I hope you enjoy your day off.
May 13th, 2008 at 6:46 pm
Karen (Simply A Musing Blog) says:
I’m new to your blog, but can I just tell you how wonderful it is to read what you’ve written on this page? I am taking care of both of my parents (80’s) and it is excruciatingly difficult to even remember a time when I was not playing nursemaid. I love them dearly, but with three kids of my own, I have my hands so full that I am at times overwhelmed. Like you, I miss the mom I used to have.
Enjoy your day of freedom and come back refreshed and renewed and without guilt. You have earned it.
May 13th, 2008 at 8:41 pm
Cindy-Still His Girl says:
Hugs to you, my sweet friend. Your mother is blessed to have you. Miss you!!
May 13th, 2008 at 9:45 pm
Daiquiri says:
A Scott Kelby Workshop?! I’m SO jealous! But about the single parent, credit confusion, confused mom…sorry. I can’t imagine it. Hang in there.
And enjoy that workshop…post some tips for the rest of us?
May 13th, 2008 at 10:33 pm